Lately, I haven’t been the healthiest version of myself it’s true
because it’s been a rough time in my life
a season of grief and hardship
the pain consumed me
and I felt for a moment there like I didn’t have the bandwidth to take care of myself.
Additionally—it felt fruitless.
Like how the fuck is food and water and tapping and stretching going to take the edge off?
Why not just reach for the quick-fix tools instead?
Distracting myself with work skipping meals because I have no appetite and having that extra glass of wine to soften the razor-sharp edges of my life?
And you know what? These quick-fix tools worked for a while.
And I’m letting go of any shame I’m feeling for relying on them
because I’m only human.
And one of the best parts of being human is having the free will to make choices.
I have the intellect to catch myself before I fall.
Not everything is all or nothing,
black or white—
we can turn to coping mechanisms that aren’t the healthiest for us
but that doesn’t mean we need to …
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