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AFFIRMATION TRANSCRIPT:
Sometimes it feels like life just comes at me so hard.
Sometimes it just feels like my life is spinning out of control.
And at some point, I stopped driving the car and I don't even know who's driving the car—but it certainly isn't me and I'm just in the passenger seat.
I don't like being in the passenger seat.
I like to have control.
I like to have control.
And I'm going to admit that.
And I don't feel ashamed for wanting to protect myself.
I don't feel ashamed for wanting to protect the people I love from the crash.
But here's the thing—sometimes life takes the wheel and sometimes it can be REALLY hard to trust life.
But today—in this moment—I'm going to choose to let go.
You know that saying, let go and let God?
I'm going to adopt that saying for today, except I'm going to make it way cooler because I am a bad motherfucker and I do things my OWN goddamn way.
So instead of saying Let go and let God, I'm going to say, let go and let Lana Del Rey.
Because what if there's this badass, cool woman—doesn't have to be Lana—what if it's just somebody in my lineage? What if it's the universe? What if there's this great writer that is writing the story of my life and this is just *one* chapter?
What if I could just accept right now today that I can't control everything?
And guess what?
That's pretty fucking so dope—because Lana, the universe, my fierce grandmothers and great grandmothers and great, great, great, great, great grandmothers, the energy of life herself, they know what they're doing.
And every time, every time a hardship comes my way, it's coming my way for a reason.
One of the coolest things about being a human is that yes, we can't control life, but we can control how we choose to react to the shit that comes our way.
But the shit that Lana Del Rey is bringing us—what if this is just a challenge, a challenge, a calling to rise to whatever comes?
I can cry, I can feel I can be angry.
All of my feelings are valid, but I can also know that this is setting me up for something amazing.
This is setting me up to help.
This is setting me up to create something innovative and beautiful.
This is happening.
This is happening because my life was never meant to be pretty. I pretty is easy. It's nice to look at.
It's not very debatable. It doesn't challenge you. You see it.
You say, “Oh, that was pretty,” and then you forget about it.
I am made for bigger things than pretty.
I am made for beauty.
And beauty is complicated.
Beauty can be messy. Beauty haunts us. Beauty is a masterpiece, a masterpiece that invokes emotion and has a purpose, and inspires deep connection in others.
And the things happening to me in my life right now are not happening to me. They're happening for me.
And right now, in this moment, I am letting go.
I am letting go of what I can't control, and I'm just choosing to trust that this is happening because big things are meant for me.
Shit like this, it happens to the extraordinary and I'm choosing to rise to the extraordinary.
I might not know how it's all going to manifest, how it's all going to happen, but I do know that all beautiful masterpieces are born from hardship.
And I fully trust myself to take this and channel it into something fabulous: a business that makes a ton of fucking money. A New York Times bestseller, the ability to heal, to connect with others, to think outside of the box.
This is stretching me.
This is cracking me open and allowing so much more magic inside.
I'm ready for it. I am here for it. I am letting go, and I am letting Lana Del Rey.
And so it fucking is.
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